MMFCL
03.22.08 (8:46 am) [edit]people can shut the fuck up about me and they can go blow them selfs..des is a stupid bitch and for all i care she can rot in fucking hell. i dont give a shit what she has to say. I mean its just fucking music and if i didnt fucking like then i wouldt listen to it. i love all kinds of music and its like who gives a fuck. its like what does she have against me. she is allways telling me to shut up and i dont do what people tell me to do...it like she fucking hates me. she said if u dis on icp ur distrespecting me. fucking short fat ass bitch.
WOW
03.21.08 (9:04 pm) [edit]okay des pissed me off today. to be a juggalette/juggalo u dont know have to know every detail about ICP. you just have to like there music and a bunch of other crap. well she dont know shit. she dont even know that there is an ICP song called rainbows and stuff...now what..that was the first song i ever hurt by them and at the time i didnt even know who icp was.
im a Juggalo 4 Life
03.20.08 (9:16 pm) [edit]you know what i dont give a rats ass what people think about me and i never have. i am not going to conform to what every one els does. i like what i want and ill do what i want whether people like it or not. I mean i like ICP and one of my friends from back home said that they are stupid and i was like i dont give a fuck. i love icp and no one is going to change that. I mean being a juggalo is being yourself. one thing i hate is that steotypical bull shit about chicks. i am not a girly girl and i am not affrade to burp or fart in public. i dont where make up cus i think that its a waist of time and money. if i gave a fuck about my wight or my lisp i would have changed allready. i like how i am i mean fuck the world and they hypocrits..... down with the clowns 4 life bitches
Yay
03.18.08 (3:33 pm) [edit]well i talked to jen about my trade. she said that i was going to go strate in t custodeial. i didnt want to do that as my first choice so i am sticking with culinary and now i get to go in to step up and into culinary. so i get 2 weeks for vacation and then i come back. jen said that i am going to be put on the line to see how my skills are. so i am happy as hell. love em
loving and leaving you is the hardest thing i will have to do...
03.18.08 (9:07 am) [edit]i love mike i love mike more then any thing in the world. well kyle is what i love more then mike but oh well to bad for mike. i mean he loves me for me and not who i am not. i feel bad cuz i wont have sex with him...but the reason i wont is because i can barly take care of my self. how in the hell would i be able to take care of a kid the way a kid should be taken care of. i think that i would be a bad mom any way....i got to many anger issues and abandoment issues. it is going to kill me being a way from mike for god knows how long. i mean i dont even know if i will i am going into my trade or not...but i love him so much. i am shocked that i guy actully likes me...i know if he wanted to he would have taken advantage of me allready. he is not like most guys he wont hurt a women no matter what. he is vary protective of me and i am affrade tat is a bad thing or it could be a good thing idk. i am going to miss him so much. we live in mi...and he lives up north and i live really close to the ohio border. so we live really far apart and i got to go home to a crapy house. id do anything for him,kyle,mama,kaila,kris and david...yea i love them along with my parents a lot. i dont know what id do with out them. your lord and master foamy jkjk love em
loving and leaving you is the hardest thing i will have to do...
03.17.08 (8:44 pm) [edit]i love mike i love mike more then any thing in the world. well kyle is what i love more then mike but oh well to bad for mike. i mean he loves me for me and not who i am not. i feel bad cuz i wont have sex with him...but the reason i wont is because i can barly take care of my self. how in the hell would i be able to take care of a kid the way a kid should be taken care of. i think that i would be a bad mom any way....i got to many anger issues and abandoment issues. it is going to kill me being a way from mike for god knows how long. i mean i dont even know if i will i am going into my trade or not...but i love him so much. i am shocked that i guy actully likes me...i know if he wanted to he would have taken advantage of me allready. he is not like most guys he wont hurt a women no matter what. he is vary protective of me and i am affrade tat is a bad thing or it could be a good thing idk. i am going to miss him so much. we live in mi...and he lives up north and i live really close to the ohio border. so we live really far apart and i got to go home to a crapy house. id do anything for him,kyle,mama,kaila,kris and david...yea i love them along with my parents a lot. i dont know what id do with out them. your lord and master foamy jkjk love em
foamy
03.17.08 (8:07 pm) [edit]okay if you go to iwillpress there you will find foamy. he is the shit he remineds me of my god danm self. well that is where the someone should stab you in the eye with a really hot freanchfry came from. another one of my faverit qoutes is more pills for everyone that one is from pilz-e. i love foamy and pilz-e i mean come one foamy is pissed off all the time. pilz-e is a pill poping hyper crazy fuck.
rant 1
03.17.08 (12:36 pm) [edit]okay i was up in my boyfrends room playing gitary hero. he went to his friends room to do something and both of them came up here. okay he asked me what was up with my arm and i told him the truth. i have cut selveral times. i know that its not good or heathy and i dont want to hear that. any way i had left the libary and him and mike whre playing pool. i had said something and matt mikes friend was like why dont u go cut ur arm some more. i just dont know what to do and i dont feel like telling any one. so now i am really depressed and its like why do people have to say crap like that. he is lucky mike didt beat the crap out of him. now i hate him and there is nothing i can do about it. fucking bastard he can go kill him by sitcking a bat up his ass that is has nails sticking out of it and then he can stick a hot fucking frachfry in his eye and then he can go drink vary hot oil. i mean why whould he say shit like that. i mean i he is on my god danm shitlist and its hard them to get back on my god danm good side.....fuck people with there fucking words and the fucking hypocryts. I am tired of fucking dicks and guys making fun of me. you know what i am going to be a hell of a better person then thmey are. i dont act like something im not like most people do. i am not going to change for any one but my god danm self. people think i am fucking crazy but you know what i am fucking crazy. i had just about enough of fucking people. no one but a few god danm people. my past no one fucking would want to live. i know that some people have a worse life then i do. guys can go fuck thems selfs with a loaf of bread. or i could chop of there dicks and feed it to my sissys pit. for some reason i want to stick all guys on a little islad and set a bucnh of rapists lose and hope to god they all get fucked in the god danm ass. i dont even know why they cant keep there god danm comment s to there god danm selfs. i am not even in a good god mood any more. right now i feel like i am a god danm pice of shit. id rahter sepend the rest of my life alone then with some one.i dont even desrve fucking friends that is how bad of a person i am. i am so used to guys treating me like shit. i dont even know why i even try. its like i try to make people hate me and then it blows up in my fucking face. now i feel so fucking fat and ugly cuz of what mike told me what his friends told me. i just want to crawl howle and fucking die. i dont give a fuck any more and it kinda pisses me off about people here.shalow fucking son of bitches.
foamy is awsome
03.16.08 (4:57 pm) [edit]jonathan ian mathers is the shit. he is the creater of foamy the squirrel. Foamy is hillarous. If I was having a bad day all i got to do is listen to foamy and i get all happy. foamy is the shit. if any who reads this have hurd of foamy then you will understand why i like him so much. I honestley dont care about the animation but the shit that foamy says. he is pissed off all the time and it remindes me of my self. it makes all my pain and suffering go away. no one quite understand it and they dont understands me at all eaher. all people say that i am weird and you know i dont care.
foamy is awsome
03.16.08 (4:46 pm) [edit]jonathan ian mathers is the shit. he is the creater of foamy the squirrel. Foamy is hillarous. If I was having a bad day all i got to do is listen to foamy and i get all happy. foamy is the shit. if any who reads this have hurd of foamy then you will understand why i like him so much. I honestley dont care about the animation but the shit that foamy says. he is pissed off all the time and it remindes me of my self. it makes all my pain and suffering go away. no one quite understand it and they dont understands me at all eaher. all people say that i am weird and you know i dont care.
happy
03.16.08 (12:29 pm) [edit]well i get 264 dollars from the state and i now get medical. i am so happy cuz i have not been able to afford my medication at all. so my parents have been paying for it for me. I allways feel bad when they pay so much money for something for me. i did't even want to be put on this medication but it helps. i mean i dont even have a docter over here at mcti. it sucks cuz i dont even have a car to go and find a docter.... i dont want to go home at all. i hate being home because i am treadted like shit. i dont like being treated like shit. fuck that the only reason i am going home i s cuz i want to see baby kyle thats it. i dont even like my fucked up family. both of my parets like my sister more then me. i hate being alone and all that shit. id rather stay here then go home. my dad said a couple of days befor i came here that they finally get to get rid of me. that shit hurt really bad. they he has the fucing nurve to say that tat he misses me. i am trying my danmest to do good here. love em
well
03.15.08 (2:28 pm) [edit]today i am bord as hell. there is nothing to do here and i just want to do something fun. i dont want to go home but i do just because i want to see kyle. i miss that kid so much. i know that if i go home that me and my prents are going to be fighting. i cant stand them at all cuz they treat me like shit. i hate to be alone and i dont know why. i try to make them proud i try to change for them and it allways blows up in my face. I am so used to being treated ike shit i liet every one treat me like shit. i dont know how to deal with alot of things. i try and do nice stuff for people but that dont work eather. i dont know what went worng with me. i feel asshamed of who i am. i dont want to live any more but like i said befor i dont want to die eather. im allways affrade of my dad drunk or sober. i have watched my paretns beat each other. my dad hit me not when i was little but when i was in ninth grade. I hate to be left alone my boyfriend thinks that i have abonement issues because of my past. i dont like when my dad is left alone with my mom and now that i am at school its just about killed me. to me im a pice of shit to my prents. they tell me them selfs. Look i am the one who is going to colledge. you know i am trying my hardest to make them happy but it wont work. im lower then our dog and cat. all my mom cares more about her weed then me. i act out because all i want is attention from them. even if its not positive attention. half the time when i am at home i sit in my room playing GH cuz i have nothing better to do. i mean its like be round my mom who i hate or just stay in my room so i dont have to put up with her shit. i am affrade for mike to meet my dad because he is so mean. i do want him to meet my sissy though cuz she is not that bad. well next week is my last week of school. i cant wait untill i get to go home becaue i get to see baby kyle. thats the only reason i want to go home beacause i love that kid as if i gave birth to him. he is my everything. i love him more then i love mike. you know that i am not like alot of other people. i am wird and i know that and i dont give a shit what people think. i am not going to change for any one not even mike. he can take me or leave me. i am going to like what i want to like whether people like it or not. so if mike tryes to make me change who i am fuck him im not going to do it. i got to stay true to my self then whats the point. love em
im so loved
03.14.08 (9:42 pm) [edit]well me and mike where making out. he wanted to have sex but he stoped him self. he said that he didnt want to hurt me. some guys would have sex with you whether you wanted to or not. thats why i love him he is a sweet heart. you know if i didnt love him none of this would happen.
i love him
03.14.08 (4:31 pm) [edit]mike means everything to me no one understands that. i am glad that we got back to gether. he mihgt not like that i wont have sex with him but he respect me enough not to force it on me. he likes me for me and i loke him for who he is. i am never going to belive what people say again. i do just about anything for him. being around him makes me happy and i trust him alot. even though i have major trust issues. He gets along with his family and i dont get along with mine. i would die for him..i dont know if he would die for me but oh well. Even though he is my first boyfriend i am hopeing that theis realtionship will last for a long time. i am hopeing that he wont cheat on me because he is not a vergen and i am. that is the only thing that i am worried about. you know what i dont care what he does or who he talks to as long as he dont cheat. i dont want to controlle him like my firiend is trying to contorlle andrew. love em
why r ppl trying to break us ^
03.14.08 (10:41 am) [edit]what i want to know is why is every one trying to get me to break up with mike. first it was jeremy and i beleved what he told me and now my so called bestfiend. i allready made that mistake once and i was not about to make it again. so what the fuck is pplz deals. i know now to listen to them. she told mike that she assumed that he was cheating on me. that shit pisses me off because when u assume something it means you make an ass out of you and me i dont even know what to do right now. she is supossed to be my bestfriend but why would a bff assume something like that. i just dont get it.
sick and tired
03.12.08 (7:09 am) [edit]okay well nina is pissing me off. i am tired of her acting like my mother. as far as i am concerned i have never had a mom...let alone a family. i wish that she would keep her oppenens to her self. i am all ready stressed out with my own shit and shit that is going on at home. my mom didnt call me last night so i had to call her. that shows me that she cares. i know she dont but yea i wish she would have called like she said that she said she said.
boys vs men
03.09.08 (3:10 pm) [edit]boys are pussys and men are not. a man wont hurt a girl no matter what and a boy would. a real man takes care of a kid even though the kid is not his own. a boy will puss out when they find out that they got a girl preggers. thats it end of story.
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!!
03.04.08 (10:00 am) [edit]for the first time in a long time i am happy again. i dont know why but i am maby its because of the drama that has dyed down and shit. guys here are so stupid and im tired of them trying to get in my paints. i am not easy and shit some people might think that i am. i am one of the strogest person ever. i am still going to wait untill i am married. what ever happens happens and im like the only way i will have sex is if i got raped. i am so scared of getting hurt again and i dont know if i could trust a guy ever agin. i mean my x threated to kill me just cuz i was hyper and shit. the guy that i like now said that he would date me and then said no. antother guy threated to him me twice. okay i dont like when people fuck with me and that is why i dont eat brekfast. i dont want to be fucked with early in the morning cuz it would just put me in a bad mood. WOOT!!! so yea i have nothing to do right now and i am bord as hell. i hope justin writes me back because i would like to know more about him also. i mean i dont know if he likes me or not. he said that he dont want a gf or any friends. i know i said the same things and it just happend that i had friends. i kida feel bad becuse i am useing pete to talk to him cuz i dont have the balls to do it my self. i dont know why but i guess that you could say that i am shy and eahter he is shy to. i am a people person though and i dont know why i am shy. maby its becaue i like him idk its kida funny tho.other then that i am happy as hell and no one is going to bring me down.
never regret
03.03.08 (7:36 am) [edit]you should never regret anything. because if you do then you wont be happy. the choices that i have made i have never regreted. even if they have not been good ones. i dont care what people think because i just dont. i live my life the way i want to live it. not they way people tell me to live my life. i mean what is the point in living if u cant live it the way you want. I dont give a fuck about any one any more because i have been hurt so many times by people. i know who my real friends are and that is all that matters to me.