stuff on my mind
07.07.08 (12:29 am) [edit]well i dont got alot on my mind well maby i do i dont know yet. I str8t up hate censorship. i cant stand having to bite my lip every time i want to say something just because it might offend some one. i just dont care any more im going to say what i want when i want. I dont care who i offend now. i got that freedom and im going to use it. right now im listing to music to try and calm my nervs but i cant quit thinkng about how my x bf hurt me again. i thunk that we could be frinds but we cant and i know now that its never going to happen. i think that he is hurt because all i wanted to do is kill my self when we were together. i just dont get how some one can be so mean. he says that he hates me but i do think that there are some feelings there. He knows that im still in love with him and it sucks. So the next day i sent him a message on myspace if what he said is how he realy feels about me. but im doing good. im with a wonderfull guy...hopefully. I love him to death and i know and hope that he wont hurt me. i realy want to go to the gathering this year. but i cant cuz i cant fucking drive. witch sucks cuz i realy want to meet more of my juggalo family. people think that i have changed alot sense i went to colledge. I dont think i have changed but every round me does. but what ever i realy dont care and i guess that i dont know. i mean i love my juggalo family and i love all my friends and family.