ROSE
11.09.08 (4:49 pm) [edit]I fucking hate this bitch. she started to yell at me because i made her kid take my moms false teeth upstares. I mean he dont fucking listen as it it and just because he didnt bring them down stares. rose was like that is how i he was raseed. i was rased in a compleatly diffrent way. if i didnt do as i was told when i was told to do it more often then not i was i was hit. im like what the fuck ever. both of her fucking kids like to play the other adults. im like what the fuck ever...sometimes i wish i never fucking moved. it was alot easer at my houe even tho me and my parents faught all the tme. im so done with her i cant wait untill i move the fuck out. when i tryed to talk to her she compleatly shut me out. yea this bitch is alot older then me and i dont get where she has any right to tell me what to do. yea its her kids but they dont fucking listen to her. i mean im like what the fuck and i hope that this cunt die. i have never hated some one this much in my etire life. she dont say that she loves her kids or that type of shit. im sick not like i have a cold or anything but im sick. cuz im a cutter and the only way that i know how to deal with stress is to cut. im allaready feeling like i dont want to live im tired of being in pain. if my fucking roomie thinks that i am going to have surgery while i live here then she is fucking crazy. I dont like to go out in public for long period of time. if i do i start to freak out and shit.....i feel like no one love or cares about me but at the same time i know people do. alot of my fights get physical....if my sis was not hear today then i would have blown up at here. she was like dont tell me how to parent. i would not have to tell her how to parent if she acted like one. no i dont have any kids but i would not treat them like she does to her own. i got a short feuse and it sucks. i dont have the pations to put up with her kids. I am a cutter and i will allways be a cutter even tho i dont cut anymore. i just dont know what to do with my life. i am affrade that i am going to push away my boyfriend. then i dont know what i would do with out him. i love him to death. i know that we have not been going out for vary log. he is from mississippi and i am from michigan. he told me that he loves everything about me and we barly know eachother. he is also 25 and i am 19. i think age is nothing but a number and that my mom says that i should not go out with some one older then me.He dont want me to cut so i have not told him that i cut again. he told me that he would leave me if i contnued to do so. I fucking hate josh for lieing to me. he is still in love with me and im not in love with him. that is how fast i can fall in and out of love with some one. he had told my mom once he figured out that he cares about me it was to late. i am an honest person and I cant stand being lied to. I hope that my current boyfiend is the same way. its funny that the same night i broke up with josh i started to go wout with tommy. I dont give a fuck what my mom says. i hate how she says that its stupid that i go out with some one just because he is older then me. fuck my mother and father. i mean i love them and all but they have put me though hell. rose can go fuck her self. wait that she might like it so never mind ++++++++++ THE I love list tommy mama david christina kyle M kaila kyle P yavonne (sp) travis M shiri channon +++++++++